this week is quite a bad week, especially wednesday and thursday...
monday is okay, we had durians for lunch! haha. durians meal. i think i ate too much, so much so that even at 5.30pm, the durians had not been digested yet and i was not hungry at all. what's more is that my colleagues and i had already planned to eat buffet on that day. wah. so at first, i only drank green tea, to digest the durians... sian. eat too many already. then slowly, i ate some soft shell crabs, sushi... was quite full already. i shouldn't eat the soft shell crabs because they are fried. haiz. then ate some cold crabs, not bad. very nice. salmon too. the ice cream was wonderful. creamy, nice!!! then there were some specials every hour or so, and these were limited. it was quite fun, we had to observe the waitresses' , waiters' move to see whether the special food is coming or not, then we will rush to the counter to queue up for the food. there was twice 4 of us had this special item. lobster! super nice. i was afraid at first because i can't eat prawns-the smell of lobster is quite similar to prawns. but i don't care, fortunately. it was nice! :)
talked about office politics... some other jokes.
i really regretted eating so many durians... or else my buffet will be more worth it! definitely. aww.
anyway, the durians are also not very nice afterall. haha. but i ate a lot because i didn't eat durians for a long time. at least years.
my colleague also drove me home.haha.
on tuesday, it was okay too. nothing much happened.
wednesday is really my bad day. made too many mistakes.
colleague A asked me to do something. i did but i keyed some into the wrong account. i was super scared at first, didn't dare to tell A, at that time, colleague B came to use my computer, i decided to tell her, but B say it is nothing much, just receipt and offset the value.
so i pluck up my courage to tell A ( i was really very scared at that moment, never did i felt this way in this company), then A said " wah. this is really complicated. have to do a lot of things. you, ah. " i said " you angry? " she replied " no, just that i have a lot of things to do. " i just smiled a bit. i was guilty too. because everyone had many things to do and i made such a mistake.
so i offset the value and put into the correct account. after that, at first, A was afraid to give me things to do, haha. but because she was too busy, she decided to let me finish the task. there were home and foreign currency, i only did the singapore currency and i made the mistake already.
after that, other colleagues accused me of doing some wrong tasks. like keying into the wrong account ( i didn't do that, but maybe because i did the same mistake earlier, she thinks that this mistake is mine. ) wah. at that time, i didn't felt this way, i just smiled.
colleague C say i did not file the payment vouchers properly, as in there were 2 dividers of the same name. yes, i filed wrongly, but something she said just make me hate her. =.= she said " i don't give you your cheque ah, anyhow do things. " something like that. what the.
then this C thinks all the wrong filing is mine, everytime there were something wrong, it is always me. why can't it be the person who did this before me? i only take over this job like 2 weeks ago and i don't like it at all. the matching of invoices is tougher than the previous matching of invoices of the smaller company. then this C keep asking me to clear the problematic invoices when i don't know what they were for ( they were left by the previous person ). wonderful, right? don't understand why C choose me to do stuff for her, instead of that previous person. i helped her to key invoices fast only. i don't know anything about the problem invoices and i don't want to know. i don't know a lot of people in the other departments and C asked me to send this and that to them. problem invoices also need to ask other departments. the previous person is doing well, why can't you ask her to continue?
I REALLY PREFER TO DO THE MATCHING AND KEYING OF THE SMALLER COMPANY.
then yesterday, this C accused me of filing into the wrong divider. she asked me to find where did i file into? so i searched and searched. at first, i searched file C (the company's name starts with C), then i searched file T because i got this feeling that this company somehow changed name but i forgotten what is the new name... then C said " woah. from C to T ah. " (i can sense the sarcasm in her words). i don't care about her and continued searching. i finally managed to find it after some time, this company had changed its name and that's why i filed into file T. this C don't know about the change in company name and just accused me of filing wrongly. IT IS REALLY EASY TO PIN-POINT OTHERS.
then, my timesheet was checked and i wrote wrongly. good friday is a holiday and i wrote i worked 8 hours on that day, then my boss asked me " you worked on good friday? ha. ha." (this definitely is not said in a joking manner. i didn't said anything and just smiled a bit. i can feel that my boss also don't trust me. people err, don't you? =.=
C was the one who did the cheque and payment, so she did the cheque for me and then said to me " NA, GO, photocopy the payment vouchers " she definitely said it in a BU SHUANG way. IDIOT. so what if you are doing the cheque? in the end you still have to give me the cheque. you think by saying words like " i don't give you your cheque ah. " means i won't get my pay? please la, the most i complain to the bigger boss lor. very small things like stamping the received word and AP stamp on the wrong place such that some minor things can't be seen is also wrong. other thing have more important words so i stamp at that place. even this she had to say " i don't you give your cheque. " REALLY. I SALUTE HER.
sometimes i think C never use her brain. always only know to complain other people. like there was one incident when person D from another department didn't want to issue a PO because it is last year's PO and had to go through some stages, then C said "some small things like this also won't help us, next time D wants to issue cheque, i will do it slowly and wait for her to come down to get it, not us to bring it to her"
there was once C said " an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth, if people treats me bad, i will do the same thing to them. " yes, this is right, but have you ever thought of treating them good and they will do the same thing to you? have you ever thought to make the first move and not wait for them to do it?
PLEASE, THINK OF THE THINGS OTHERS HAVE DONE FOR YOU BEFORE YOU GIVE THEM THE DEATH SENTENCE.
get back to the cheque thing again. she did the cheque for me and said " woah. this month pocket very full ah. haha. " then the next thing she said after 10 mins or so is bad thing. (the one " NA, GO, photocopy the payment vouchers in the BU SHUANG manner).
one minute C can smiled at me, the other minute she bu shuang me. WOW! what a change.
very li hai leh.
she sat with me on the bus home, then i had to talk to her, VERY RELUCTANTLY. pretend to smile and laugh when i talk to her, pretend to care about her stuff, like the issuing of PO by the other department. wah. GUESS THAT I HAVE LEARNT ALL THESE. BAD STUFF.
WHAT A HYPOCRITE AM I.
and i had to face her for lunch, on the journey home, for work. actually we were good friends and colleagues, C was the first few i got to know of in this company. i don't know why things turn out to be like that.
perhaps, i am SICK of doing the same things and did not do them properly. BUT, C SHOULDN'T HAVE SAID ALL THOSE THINGS, RIGHT?
THINK FOR OTHERS, BE IN THEIR SHOES.
all these things make me ponder over whether i should continue to stay in this company. all the idiotic things, NO TRUST, clear instructions were not given, aunties gossiping behind people's backs... ...
the only thing that make me want to stay is the pay. i want to earn more so that during university, i do not really need to think about the financial part. so i am working for the pay now. ONLY.
PATHETIC.
i want to learn new things. this company is not teaching me much. i am ALWAYS doing the same thing over and over again. SAME STUFF. really SICK of that.
but pay is my first priority. aww. i will see how first, maybe when a good job offer comes and with a good pay, i will job hop. it is tough to find a job now, so i have to just bear with it for the moment. anyway i don't have any contract with the company, i can just go like that. and i will see how C copes with it.
HAHA! HAHA! HAHA!
feels really bad right. of course, i won't do such things. i will work till AP closes, that is the minimum.
one more month, can i bear with it?
on the other hand, one more month of pay!!! aww.
thinking of the pay, my pay for april is not bad. haha. that is the ONLY thing i look forward to at the end of the month. that is the ONLY pushing force for me to continue working in this company. i feel that i am very pathetic. others work for fun, their interest, i work for money. that is definitely not my aim when i started work. i want to gain experience. of course, $ was on the list when i started work. well... MORE OTs for month of may please!
i also thought of the holiday that i deserve. am i really enjoying my holiday? i thought of the future when i start university. i won't get any deserved breaks for 3, 4 years?
time really flies. it is MAY already. 6 months of my holidays are gone. 3 more months. it is still not too late for me to really enjoy.
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