sad... the agency told me the mother said the answers i gave her child are all wrong... what the. how can the answers be all wrong? definitely got at least 1 or 2 correct? felt very frustrated about it. then i went popular to fiind the assessment book but can't find. i really don't think ALL the answers i gave her are WRONG. i know my standard but definitely there will be some correct, madam. =.=
super bu shuang.
and i am not sure whether i will get the pay for the 1 lesson.
i think the agent had a bad impression of me already... 2 parents don't want me. very sad.
well. maybe i can't really teach... argh.
going stock-check tomorrow... hope it takes the whole day then i will not have to think of what to do.
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6:55 PM
sian... i am back from my tuition.
quite sad about it. i am teaching her english and told her that she should check up the dictionary when she comes upon any words that she do not understand... then i asked her to check up the dictionary on a word : deprive . she suddenly said in chinese " you don't know? " wah. i was taken aback by her words. checking up the dictionary is for her own good... i know the meaning of deprive, but she don't understand my intentions... what the. really. yes, there were some words that i don't know. and sometimes to hide that fact that i don't know, i told her to check up the dictionary. but what i had done is all for her own good. what matters is that she understand. aww. her words really make me feel that i am an incompetent teacher. perhaps i really don't know how to explain and teach.
how?
maybe i try for another lesson or two. see how it goes first.
transport is free for 3 lessons out of 4 lessons per week... that is the only good thing SO FAR.
hopefully there will be more coming up.
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8:22 PM
got a new tuition kid... going later. and its a primary 6 kid, english.
aww. scared that i will not be able to answer their questions. embarrassed.
sigh. well. give it a try first.
hopefully this will be the one. cuz the transport may be free... jp bus.
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4:07 PM
went out with caroline yesterday for dinner...
many things have changed in jj... i also realised that my j2 teachers are not bad. i thought about the times we laughed at teachers, the jokes that our class made against teachers, the times we had together. really fun.
well, missed the days in jc. our teachers are really not bad. joke with us too.
hope to have a class outing, inviting those teachers too. that would be great. but it would be difficult to invite them and some of our class people. some in army, some working... only weekends.
work was quite okay... not really busy but at least i had something to do. i realised that i had been doing things slower and slower... quite sad.
well... hope PRB can meet up more often. like everyone together. that would be great.
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8:43 AM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
work was quite slack these 2 days...
yesterday, i slacked for close to 5 hours. in the morning i need to log in to the computer to key in invoices, but the temp account had been closed down. so we had to open a new account. this took like 3 hours, it was only around 2pm that i could log in. in between, i did some super simple tasks, like printing some papers, finding some tasks... i sat there, staring. stop and stare. testing out some pens, writing some things, looking at some documents.
and i didn't really feel bad about it, because there were really nothing for me to do, i tried asking others if they had anything that i could do, i had done those they asked me to do and there were not much left, really. haha. in the afternoon after i could log in, there were 3 shut-downs due to one person, as said by the other colleagues... previously when person A sat on the table, there were nothing wrong or any shut-downs. now when person B came, 3 shut-downs occurred. not all computers were affected, mine was. i was in the midst of keying something and the computer suddenly turn black. wah sian! well, nevermind... and it happened again and again within maybe 20 mins.
so, i only keyed some data(serious stuff) yesterday, other than that, it was simple tasks. so, i earned the whole day. haha. was so relaxed. hope everyday will be like that. :)
today, i was a bit more busy. i was keying data the whole day... i am not sure why i keyed so slow... it is like i only keyed about 200 invoices for the whole day... some needed more time to key in as i had to check the date for every document in each invoice. was quite sad that i couldn't finish keying in today... well.
anyway, had 'shen mian' from the zhi car store today... not very nice because we bought back to eat. maybe will try others next time...
driving is starting next saturday! quite excited... :)
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7:23 PM
my driving problem is solved...
i got a new grouping. and there are many slots!!! just that i don't really want to take leave on weekdays just for driving, its not value for money...
hmm... my first lesson i booked is next thurs, but i guess i will cancel the 2 bookings... so my first lesson will be on next sat! haha. qutie fast. just 1 week plus to first lesson. not bad.
so, it is a blessing in disguise that i don't have any slots for my previous group.
well, anyway, went for the 2 final theory lessons just now. was quite tired and time passed quite slowly... luckily for the second lesson, it was more fun, i mean more interesting.
learnt many new things... not bad la.
a new job... not sure whether want to take up. well. have to weigh pros and cons first.
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7:16 PM
PASSED my BTT!
was quite nervous becuase there were some questions that i have forgotten the answers...
well... so after the test, i went to update the result into the system. then went to book IMMEDIATELY after that.( as printed on the slip of paper we had when we completed our evaluation ) but, i only see 2 slots available. i booked one, then tried to book again, but unfortunately, i don't see any slots available. NONE!
i went to check again just a few mins ago and there were none! my sister and shiting helped me check, then they can see slots available.
i think the word ' IMMEDIATELY ' must be changed. this word really cause some confusion and anxiety among the people , at least me.
it is very difficult to get the slots u want and every minute counts.
maybe i am just overly concerned, in a good way.
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11:31 AM
there is tuition tomorrow...
i dread going for tuition... the girl does not respond to me.
haiz. not sure what to do.
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9:42 PM
Went for NUS and NTU open house last weekend.
It was quite enriching. I had learnt more about the courses i want.
Sad thing that i can't get into pharmacy!!! need BIO! argh hopefully, i will get the chance to study pharmacy next time.
well, chem engineering is also tough. my grades cannot make it. disappointment. i am thikning of accountancy and business as 2nd and 3rd choice... hmm. maybe some math courses or chem courses too. hopefully, i will make the right choice.
scholarship? hmm. i have been procrastinating this matter. maybe i don't have the confidence to get one, or that i am just LAZY. argh. need to send many documents. ya, LAZY.
anyway, i hope to get this done fast.
i think i am under too much stress. there are many things to worry about.
at least, one matter is solved. my job.
the company had decided. this is a long story.
on wednesday, i just wanted to check my contract out of a sudden and found something very important: my contract ends on friday (which is today). i was very shocked. all along, i thought that my contract ends end of march. so, i went to find job quickly. sent many job applications. i must remember to tell my boss the next day.
so i told my boss the next day and she was shocked as well. everyone was. i think. my boss told her superior and then her superior decided to have a meeting. i was asked to join the meeting too, surprisingly. they talked about moving to another place, allocation of work... ... and of course my matter. both my 'teachers' wanted me to stay, my boss too, but my boss's superior doesn't, because the company want to cut costs and there is a lot of staff in the department already, others are complaining. well, so my boss's superior had to talk to the bigger boss.
hmm. i was quite worried at first, but decided to take it easy.
so on friday, i was quite nervous, excited. one of my 'teacher' told me in the morning that i can stay. :) at least, i need not think about this anymore. but, i thought of my pay. will it be higher than another temp staff? at least a 50cents higher? well. in the end, i was given the same pay as the other temp staff. come on, I AM DOING MORE THAN THE OTHER TEMP STAFF. out of 9 people, i work for 7 persons. i did all sort of things. matching, data entry, cheques, stock, pv, filing, photocopying, gst, other countries' stuff, payment, finding stuff, u name it, i've done it.
the other temp staff just did matching, finding some stuff, filing, photocopying, carry files, very little data entry...
SIAN.
well, i should count myself lucky. don't be so pessimistic. be optimistic. :)
today was the last day of my colleague, as one small company had to go to another location first. so we took photos, chatted.
today should be my last day too. haha.
anyway, i talked a lot more today, compared to other days... maybe i thought that it was my last day or something. well. i hope it continue like that. :)
my courses. nice one can?
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6:49 PM
something happened today that makes me hesistating to continue my contract at my present office... if my boss want to extend me.
last friday, we collected our A level results... and i didn't go to work that day.
usually, i would give my timesheet to my boss every friday to let my boss sign. but since i didn't go to work on friday, i decided to wait till next week, give 2 timesheets together...
so today i gave the 2 timesheets to my boss, my boss said "did i sign last week's timesheet? i have forgotten. later the agency charge extra. " something similiar.
it is like my boss didn't trust me... i felt so disappointed. i have worked for coming to 3 months already. wah...really hurtful.
now, i am having second thoughts of wanting to stay. imagine someone not trusting you... argh. hatred. this incident add to me hating my boss more. SIAN!!!!!!
another thing is that i can get more experience if i find another job. like work in healthcare industry, sales... etc.
is $ or experiencing different jobs more important?
i am quite happy with my present job except for some matters... like i don't have a proper table, my boss (again) always asked me to sit at another table when the person is not here. sian. what is wrong with me JUST sitting at the table? =.=
and i won't touch or see any other documents in the computer too. even if i see, i also won't understand what the documents are. please la, what can a temp staff do?
my boss also don't trust me.
sian.
what to do?
accept my fate.
or change my fate.
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6:52 PM
Just went for SMU open house...
it is a worthwhile trip... learnt about many things about SMU. like how different is SMU, the many opportunities SMU gives us...
hmm. the only thing is that don't have the course that i really want although there are some which i am interested in in SMU. but i will keep my range wide... there is still next week. perhaps, next week will be better.
hopefully.
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7:40 PM
the results are out.
some are unexpected, some are not. in a good or bad way.
gp is unexpected, in a good way. i had done better than what i had expected and thought myself to get.
econs is also unexpected, in a good way. my FIRST time getting a A. but a lot of people say the paper is okay. well.
what i am not really happy about is the 3 H2 subjects. i wanted to get that, but i only got this. not sure whether it would affect the course i want to get into. hopefully not. but think again, i think i should be satisfied with my phy because i didn't really put in much effort for paper 1, as it was the last paper and we had many days to study for it. well. its over. BUT!!! haiz.
going to some open house for this 2 weeks... must choose the courses carefully...
must see if got any good courses. huge decision to make.
scholarship? down the drain, perhaps because of my H2 subjects... aww.
was quite sad yesterday but also happy... especially my gp.
well... next step is uni.
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8:10 AM
the news is out.
friday.
hoping.
wishing.
my expectations.
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7:17 PM
